Broken.

It is constant. It is like I always see that fucking red light go on my phone. But it is nothing. I keep hoping he will care enough to call, but he doesn't. I keep telling myself he is not worth caring about if he doesn't care at least enough to call. I can tell myself that all day, but it does not change how I feel.

This morning on the way to work, KIIS FM was on. I immediately switched stations to listen to Kevin and Bean, but there was a commercial on, so I switched back and was pleasantly surprised. Usually, I do not look to the Ryan Seacrest Morning Show for inspiration, but Larry King was on this morning giving "you know you are in love when...." advice. He said when the other person drives you crazy, you are in love. Check. When you have plans and the other party cancels and your are pissed, you are going to be in love. Check.

What will make me forget. Nothing right now. He hurts me every time I talk to him. Every time my phone rings and it is him a piece of my heart breaks off.

My mom sent me the best e-mails today. Totally what I needed.

Hi Mom,

Sorry been super duper swamped and busy feeling like an unlovable fool. I think ***** and I are officially over. This "relationship" was never fair to me. He expected me to always be there when he could do whatever he wanted. I still feel foolish.

           I know it's hard to let go.  Wrong time, wrong place.  Relationships suck.
There are many worthy guys out there for you.  You'll find him, just be
patient.

 I thought it was him. :(

He should put you first, he should listen, he should be ther for you. He can't, he's not the one.

Yeah, I'm done making excuses. He has to seriously step up to the plate if he wants anything to do with me.  I just want to be happy again.

you will be.

i think the fact that he doesnt care to call after i ripped him ANOTHER new one last night makes me feel the worst. And he knows it drives me crazy when he doesn't respond. ASSHOLE. If you don't care that much, then you don't deserve to be cared about!

Try to move on.  You are spending way too much time on this one. You cannot change a man.  You cannot go into a relationship thinking you can.  Find someone you don't have to  change.

She always knows best (which is a good segue to the cheesy song I am putting below). You can make fun if you wish in the comment section below. I am really sensitive right now but I am also one bitter bitch.